The Road I REFUSE to Travel
Good news: I’ve completed the first 3 workout sessions of the week, today is my rest day and my next 3 sessions will be on Friday, Saturday and Sunday. Anj: I have three stickers for the month of February, my goal is to collect 21 stickers this month!
Bad news: I have officially gained back 11 lbs.
I have been on this roller coaster of weight-loss and weight issues since I was 11 years old. In the three years I have been on this site, I have been in ONEDERLAND twice and both times I have said that I will never get back to 200 lbs. BOTH times I have failed. This morning I got on the scale and it read 205 lbs., I updated my ticker. I wasn’t disappointed as much as I was mad, at myself mostly, for letting this happen.
Instead of wallowing in self-pity, I decided right here and right now that I will not travel the road of weight-gain again! I refuse to be the one to drive myself back up the scale. I refuse to not take charge of the wheel. The bottom line is that I have gained weight and that I am no longer in Onederland. I have been trying for the past 3 years to lose 10% of my weight and I have not been successful. I have postponed massages and facials, buying cute clothes, ALL because I am holding the carrot on the stick in hopes that these things will motivate me. Well guess what? They haven’t and in the meantime, I have deprived myself of things I not only need, but deserve.
I have mustered strength again, (from God only knows where) and have reset my goals. We have 47 weeks to reach our yearly goals and for me, it means I MUST lose 1.6 lbs. per week to get where I need and want to be. Against my better judgement, I have set April 9th as the date I reach my mini-goal of 189 lbs. and I will see to it that I accomplish this goal once and for all. In the meantime, I will TAKE CARE OF MYSELF and LOVE myself regardless of what the scale says. This means that I am not going to wait until the scale reaches 189 lbs. for me to have a much needed facial. Yes, I understand rewards are important, but obviously these things are not enough to motivate me to do the best I can for myself.
Today is my rest day, so I must be even more diligent in tracking my food and staying within my caloric range!
For those who were wondering what it was going to take for me to wake-up and grab the wheel with both hands again, the answer is simple…I don’t have a choice. If I am going to live a healthy life, an active life, I must like my friend Kristi says, “MAN UP” and do the damn thing! I deserve better than this! You do too!
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It’s so great that you have such self controll of the situation! Just remember how happy you WILL be when you reach your goal! Any how. I know you can do it! If you need to talk I am here!!
THAT’S RIGHT! That’s it girl! Just do it.
It’s my rest day too so let’s make the most of it shall we Cookie?
And tomorrow let’s kick it up a notch and get you out of the 200’s once and for all!!
Woooo!
I am a firm believer that waiting to give yourself a reward in the future is simply punishing yourself now. Little rewards are great, but you have to feel beautiful in the meantime! The more you take care of yourself the more you love yourself; and the more you love yourself the more you will take care of yourself. Its one of those cyclic things, but once it gets going hoo-boy! You will be hot and healthy!
Plus the gents don’t mind it either!
~Renee’
I knew you had it in you!!!
I am so excited for you to be doing this, and doing it the right way! You know I’m going to kind of be away from Buddyslim for a little while after the hubby gets home…when I get back, let’s do some really good one on one buddy encouraging to meet our April goals. What do you say?
What? What’s that I hear? Is that a challenge issues by the famous cookie? 21 stickers this month? Well let me tell you Miss Cookie…if it wasn’t a challenge I heard then I’m making it into one. You and I are going to get those 21 stickers this month lady. There will be no excuses. There will be no falling off the wagon. There will only be stickers filling up the month of February. What do you say?
*****I just saw that Catrina wrote what do you say as well, but I’m letting mine stay. Looks like you got alot of people in your corner lovely lady.
I dont really have any answers…Just letting you know I am here with you. AGAIN…LOL…
Keep up that enthusiasm! It will help you get there! Oh, and share some with me, too! LOL!
I was just telling someone else yesterday that back in July I gained 10 pounds over one weekend! Yep…10! We decide…gonna keep climbing back up that scale or take control! Yippeee Yahoo for you!!