The Calm After the Storm
I seem to finally have a clear head after my mini-meltdown titled “I Am All Out of Excuses.”
I don’t know why or how it happened actually, but after writing that blog I realized that I am being too hard on myself. I realized that I supressed my feelings of disappointment over gaining back so much weight during the Holidays. Like everything else in life, if you supress something long enough, one day the pressure gets to be so that whatever it is that is bothering you blows up in your face—THAT is exactly what happened to me. Once it blows up, it’s hard to ignore it.
I don’t know if it’s coincidence, chance or a desire to improve but all that night binging came to a screeching halt. In the last couple of nights, I have sat infront of the TV to unwind, the first day I had a bowl of ice-cream and STOPPED. Last night I had a lollypop and that was the end of that! As a result, the scale has started to move in the right direction and I couldn’t be happier. It’s not the number on the scale that brings me joy, but feeling in control again. I feel that I will reach my goal(s) so long as I am commited to myself and to my health.
As I said in my last blog, I need to CHILAX.
I need to slow down and not be so hard on myself. This week, I planned to workout 5 consecutive days, but I have thought about it and I will continue on my 3 days on/1 day off of exercise. I will not earn my 21 stickers this month, but that’s OK. I need to be flexible and I need to continue to put one foot infront of the other. I am going to concentrate on crossing off most if not all of my daily goals and again, I will be patient with myself. I am in this for the long haul, binging episodes and bad habits will rear their ugly head once in awhile, but as long as I hold my ground and don’t let them break my spirit and my drive, my commitment, I WILL BE OKAY.
I will reach my goals in 2009—no question!
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CHILAX!! I loves it!
That was a hard blog for me to read from you JO - and I’m being honest here. But I knew you have that fighting attitude so I’m not surprise to see you up and just bang bang - choppin’ it up!
LOVE YA!
It’s so easy for us to set ourselves up to fail. We have all these goals that sound so wonderful but can we meet them. Maybe when we set goals for ourselves we need to sit back and say ok, are these goals I really can achieve or am I setting myself up for failure. Good call Jo with making realistic goals. You are so active in your life already so don’t keep putting pot holes in your road to success.
Chilax?? I love that I am gonna tattoo that on my forehead!
Good job, woman, you have a realistic plan, and I love it!
I like that you are calm and in control again! Good job moving towards those goals of yours!
Yo Jo!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’ve missed you soooooooooo much. Glad to see you my friend
Its great being in control, I love hearing that from you
I feel in control also…so high fivers to Jo!!!!
Off to Chilax with my buddy Jo LOL!!!
Hugs
Jane
That is great to read, AND proof that it really does help to write it down so you can put things into perspective. I think you have found a great attitude towards your journey.
It will never be perfect but that shouldn’t be a reason to stop it. 2009 is going to be your year!
Hey Jo,
glad to hear that things are going better!
Been still stuck in a rut myself lately…good intentions really dont get us far do they. Oh well.
Congrats girl…I know your gonna make it!
Debbie
aww it stole my comment, check your folder! lol
You are definitely commited to a healthier you and you will achieve it! You’ve got the right plan in place and now it’s time to take action. It’s a great feeling when you see the scale moving in the right direction because then you know that your hard work is paying off!
Feeling in control again is where I would like to be. It’s scary and frustrating to feel like I am out of control and can’t stop myself, like I turned into Godzilla overnight
I’m never going to give up on you Jo…. ever.
Let me see how many cliches I can come up with here.
Where there is a will, there is a way.
There is no try, only do.
Life gives you lemons, add tequila and salt. Oh wait… wrong cliche.
Never ever EVERRRRRRRRR give up… EVER!
One day at a time. Repeat… ONE DAY AT A TIME.
Got ‘TUDE?
Be the hero in your own story.
You can do this Jo. You have the knowledge and the power. Don’t overthink it. Just go for it.
Love ya beyond words lady.
Huggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggs,
Shan