Time to Re-group and Re-focus.
I’ve been singing the same old tired song for nearly three years. In fact, it will be EXACTLY three years on March 12 that I originally joined the site. I’ve had my share of success and my share of failures during these past three years. I joined this site weighing in at 223 lbs. and find myself 20 lbs. lighter today.
I have hit high and low notes on this journey and today, I find myself as frustrated as I have ever been.
I am not giving up, it’s not like me to do so.
I will continue to persevere and one day, I will win this battle.
In the meantime, I need to re-group and re-focus. I need to do something different. I need to work from the inside out. I have tried everything you can think of….and I still find myself in the same place.
This has been a long time coming….back in mid-January, my life was so shaken that I knew right then and there that some things needed to change….that I needed to change. I have been dazed and confused ever since, KNOWING what I need and what I want, but feeling so lost and so overwhelmed that I simply don’t know HOW to go about it.
February wasn’t any better for me….and as most of you know, my life and the life of my family changed in an instant—a heart beat.
Life is too precious….and I need to start living it. I need to make the BEST with what God has given me…this beautiful gift called life is far too valuable and too fragile to take for granted.
Buddies, I am taking yet another break from the site to re-group and re-focus. I am veering off this road and I am embarking on a new journey—one of self-discovery. I hope that when I come back, I will be a stronger and healthier person, one who can be of better service to all of you who have been generous with your support and with your friendship.
This isn’t good-bye, this is a short vacation from the site. I will be very tempted to check in on a daily basis, but I know that right now, this is best for me.
Thank you for your kind words in the last three years, for your friendship and for your understanding. Thank you for cheering me up and picking me up. This is by far, the best online community I have ever been a part of!
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Thanks for your comments Jo. I just admire your strength and determination so much. Love you to pieces! I hear ya though. I say I am going to take a little break from here, but what am I doing when I can not sleep? Reading your story and some about some ladies troubles and I do not even know her. I do believe it is time to get personal with ourselves. All the best and see you when you come back. Please send me an email when you come back… Have a great journey
*hugs*
You take care of yourself hun. I hope to see my favorite running cookie back when she is ready! Even if you are skinny as a bone by then, your words and life are an inspiration not to be taken lightly.
Have a good trip!
~Renee’
Oh hun, you do whatever you need to do. We will be here waiting for you and ready to welcome you with open arms when you come back!
Sending lots of love & hugs your way! ((HUGS))
Wow , you sound , i dont know a relief, real. 20 pounds lighter is way better than the being 20 pounds heavier. I know how hard it is to loose a pounds, so for me u’v done well. I wish u well on ur journey of self discovery. Right now - mind wise - i am troubled by my lack of weight loss , & other issues - its makes me realise reading ur blog - where not a lone, & the hope u display, helps me to think dont give up on ur self, u havent after all this time. I hope ur journey is a blessed one.x
Jo, you do what you need to. Just please keep in touch. Will sure miss you.Love you much, Kama
Jo, you know what’s best for you and that’s why you’ve decided to leave us for a little while. We support you and back you up 100%! I really hope that you come across what you are looking for. I hope that you come back a better woman and one that we can all learn from. Best of luck and you will be missed!!
Hey girl,
You take care of yourself now..and we will be waiting for your return and will be welcoming you back with open arms!!! Love Debbie
I am in tears right now. Not because you are leaving the site but because of the emotions in your blog. You have struck a nerve that I have ignored for so long, dealing with what’s on the inside. I am still not ready to go that route. I hope you find what you need to be successful and happy. Love, Tanae